Have you ever felt sad, for no particular reason, all of a sudden? Like something is bothering you yet you have no idea what it is. Somehow you just feel like crying and you wonder why? Thats how I've been feeling the past few days. As though nobody understands me, yet nobody has done anything to me to make me feel like I'm misunderstood, I'm not making sense am I?
Trust me, I too don't understand this feelings I'm having. Its alienating me from everyone else. I look happy, sound happy yet I am not. I always try to be optimistic yet how do you tell yourself to smile and forget about it when you yourself don't know what is it that's bothering you? I hope I'm making sense here. I get these insane thoughts running through my head when people tell me things. And even when I know they are right, I just can't seem to accept the fact. Its not me. Its not the Tammy I know. I guess it started on friday and everything just went downhill from then. Today i saw somebody, never really hung out before yet was very close to his brother previously. Thing is I have been seeing him for weeks in church yet never had I felt like this before. No doubt he reminds me of his brother and the times we used to hang out, it juz doesn't make any sense. Why would i suddenly feel like this all of a sudden? It never used to bother me yet. What is this feeling? I would really like to know what it is called? Sometimes I just feel that somehow I'm just going crazy. Maybe this is what mad people feel. If i was a third person looking at myself, i seriously would think that I am crazy. Its not right. This feeling is not right. What is it called? Someone please enlighten me!